In the interest of keepin’ it real, I’m going to be brutally honest. It’s real hard to be teachery these days.   I just don’t have it in me.  When I catch wind of my motivation, I’m reminded that maybe I should grocery shop.  Or do laundry. Or build Legos.  Or take a nap.  Or kiss my husband.

My life is busy and my heart is full and, outside of that, there just isn’t much else.

The past two months have dragged by and flown all in the same breath.  It’s hard to believe we’ve had a daughter (a daughter!!!!) for over two months.  Our daily visits to the NICU have become rather commonplace, and I pull into the parking garage and take the elevator in Building B to the 4th floor with such mindlessness it’s scary.  One thing never gets old though, walking to Faith’s bed space and seeing my tiny little girl.  I’m thrilled every. single. time.

She was so meant for our family.  I can’t even believe she didn’t grow in my belly.  But, what they say  (they being the Pinterest boards full of cute adoption quotes) is true: she was growing in my heart all along.   She doesn’t feel ‘adopted’ to me.  There was never any hesitation, only love.  I can’t help but think that that is how God loves us.  Absolutely seamless.

If I haven’t mentioned it before, I’m still working.  I will take a medical leave when Faith comes home, having negated my maternity leave because there really wasn’t any sense in taking one for the first six weeks after she was born.  Since I’m finished with work around 1pm each day, I just head to the hospital for an afternoon of snuggles.  It’s working, but very wearing.

B and I both have a bad case of NICUitis, characterized by fantasizing about the day our girl will come home and feeling a sense of resentment watching other babies in her pod come and go in and out of the NICU quickly.  {And I mean that in the nicest way.  I’m actually really happy for all the families who get to take their sweetpeas home!  I’ve made friends with the families and hate to lose good company…and I’m a wee little bit jealous it isn’t us! I told you — I’m keepin’ it real!}

Then there’s Becks.  Who’s shuffled here, there and everywhere each day.  We’re so blessed to have family so close by, and he’s really handled it all quite well.  He’s still full of energy and zest and super hero.  He prays every night for his sister to come home.

Sister.  Daughter.  Those words are so fun to say 🙂

Just because everyone asks, I will tell you.  We have no idea when Faith will be home.  We have a Care Conference with our medical team on Friday, so we expect to get some answers then.  Faith has had a bit of a rocky road, outside of prematurity.  I may blog about our NICU experience in it’s entirety someday.  Lots of peaks and valleys.

Anyway, thanks for stopping by!  I really do have a lot of half-finished projects hanging around, and plan to get back to being teachery again at some point.  Right now, though, I’m just focused on being mommy — and keepin’ it real.

Happy Monday 🙂