Hey, y’all! This may be an overshare, but I’m here for it.

I haven’t posted in a long time, but thanks for your diligence in checking in on me 🙂  I appreciate it.

So, this is not a teaching-related post.  Mostly.

I have debated this post for a long time.  Because I don’t want to overdramatize what I realize are very non-dramatic life events.  Especially because I am richly blessed and I don’t want to take any of that for granted.  I also don’t want any of you to think that this is a pity post.  And I don’t want to use this blog, my teaching blog, as a platform for talking about my personal life.  But, just today, I am.  You don’t have to read, if you don’t want to.  {Click for Easter activities!}

First of all, we’re trying to have a baby.  Unsuccessfully. And, at my school, we get pregnant in groups of three.  True story: when I was pregnant with Becks, two other girls were also pregnant.  And for so long I couldn’t possibly wrap my mind around being pregnant again.  I hated pregnancy.  Love, love, LOVE the end result, of course, but detested the actual pregnancy.  And, now?  Now we’re on the third set of three THIS YEAR ALONE…and I’m not one of them.  And then there’s my cousins, sister, church friends, and sorority sisters who are all expecting.  And, in all honesty, it’s just been 10 months.  But it feels like eternity when a gobzillion people are pregnant.  Except me.

So, there’s that.

And, then there’s my job.  My heart desires nothing more than to be home with Becks, so I requested (back in the fall) to go part-time for the 2012-2013 school year.  Unfortunately, my school does not have a part-time position for me.  I did, however, receive my full time first grade position again.  But my heart sunk a little when I saw my name on the list, as I was really holding out hope that my principal had something up his sleeve for me 🙁   I have prayed and prayed and prayed about this – because, really, I see this in two ways – either I pursue other schools for a part-time position…or I’m meant to stay at home with Becks full-time.  But, the job hunt is daunting, teaching jobs are hard to come by, and maybe this is just a sign that I need to be at home with my boy?  I just don’t know!  It’s such a hard decision!  And, I’m positive I would miss being in the classroom.  Ugh.

Like I said, I understand that these probably seem so minor, but the weight of each is just dragging me down lately.  I know that there are women who’ve been longing for a baby for years, and others who’ve been jobless for just as long and would love to be in my position.  But my right now is consumed with thinking about both, and it makes me feel so out of control!  My Type A personality has such a hard time of letting go and letting God take over.  I know His plan is perfect, so I need to pray for unrequited patience!

So.  That’s it.  It’s been a challenging school year, and I’m desperate for Spring Break to arrive (3 days!!!!).

Have a great day tomorrow, and I promise to be a little more happy when I come back tomorrow.  Or hoppy, if you know what I’m saying!

Blog love and sorry if this was all an overshare!!!!!